So a few months ago, I went to write some thoughts down on the blog, and as I opened it up, I saw my own face staring back at me.
“Why am I doing this?” I wondered to myself, and as I looked at my picture staring back at me, I suddenly felt as if it were out of vanity. Disgusted with myself, I left the page, and when my hosting company emailed me a week later to renew my account, I just cancelled it. I’m not going to let some stupid website get in the way of my own spiritual development.
Did I back it up first? Nope. I’m a bit impulsive.
Then came the emails. I wrote so seldom, I assumed no one was actually reading it. Then came facebook messages. People wanted to revisit articles I wrote years ago. I guess I didn’t know that this might actually be useful to some people. The big moment came when several of my own parishioners came and asked why I took it down, and how helpful it was to hear something actually positive when they went on to their facebook feed, or were just looking for inspiration.
Oh. Oops. Maybe it was useful. My bad.
So I am beginning again in earnest. I apologize to anyone who was following me and lost something that had some value to them. I am sorry as well that all my previous content is lost. Yes, I can copy it from caches, but it’s just too much work, and I’m not sure there was much good stuff anyway.
However, while I looked at beginning to write again, I also noticed a habit of my own I have. I love watching Youtube videos. I love Ascension Presents and Bishop Barron. I think maybe I can do that, albeit much more poorly. (I’m also not nearly as handsome!) I might try, we will see. Expect this new venture to be something different than before.
When I started this blog, I was in the process of becoming a deacon, and much of my traffic was centered on others going through a similar journey. Having been a deacon for a couple years now, I feel more called to serve my larger community, and will move in that direction. I will keep up a link to the more popular pages relating to diaconate formation, but I intend to move more towards Catholic Education, my own personal specialty. I feel I can serve many more people that way.
What about my own vanity you ask? Well, I think that is a demon I will have to continue to fight. I have decided in my own mind that I’m just writing lessons and homilies, and that work is His, not mine. Hopefully the Lord will give me the strength to quell my ever present pride.
Blessings, and pray for me in this new endeavor!